The Blood Moon is here, and reflecting back on this lunar cycle, it seems like the main thing I let go of is fear. It’s a timely sacrifice for this season, but I’m not talking about the spooky fun associated with Halloween.
I’m talking about the kind of fear that stops you from doing the things you want to do or know you need to do.
I almost didn’t sign my first book contract because of fear. And there are so many other things I would have missed out on if I hadn’t pushed through fear that was trying to hold me back.
In the past few weeks, I’ve done non-writing things I always dreamed about doing, but was always too afraid. I want to say that I’m more afraid of the consequences of inaction, and that might be part of it. But I’ve never felt the kind of desperation that’s gripping me right now.
There’s a saying that we regret the things we didn’t do more than we regret the things we did. That’s what I’m working to avoid, I think. I didn’t make the decision consciously. It just rose up, stronger than the fear that’s been holding me back.
I still have steps to take, and I know this is a new aspect of my life that is going to remain. It’s part of who I am now, and I’m glad for it. But I can’t fully embrace this new part of my path without letting go of that fear. It’s too heavy to carry along this road.
I’m re-purposing that fear-energy into action. Into speaking my truth instead of hiding so many of my beliefs. And I have to tell you, it feels so much better than the choices I made before.
Wishing you well along your own paths and the courage to walk them authentically.